-Intro-

[Instrumental]

-Rational Thinking, Logical Future -

So here we find ourselves again...
Standing on the edge of a precipice
The marriage of man and machine
An odious testament to our
Fearlessness and our arrogance.

No longer reliant on human fragility,
Now the facility for biomechnic
Synthetic replacement is all we need,

But there's a catch...

In exchange for your humility and empathy,
Comes immortality, death becomes a fallacy;
Human essence reduced to mere plasticity
In this rational thinking, logical future.

And all that is left is to shovel the shit.
And all that is left is to shovel the shit.

So what will become of this race,
On the precipice as the singularity encroaches?
Will we retain our humanity for the sake of integrity
Or will it be washed a way,
Smothered by the wrath of mother earth?

In this rational thinking, logical future?

-City Of Ghosts-

Everything shifts into focus
Pummelled by sensory input overload;
This taste of clarity beckons me to repeat this experience.

Burn my eyes with the brightest of lights
As the senses adapt to the otherworldly state of mind.
In the sleep deprived, unconscious mind, I search for answers.

I search this path alone.
I search this path alone
In this city of ghosts.

And were you with me, my love,
I would search no more, I would search no more.

For all unearthly revelations come from within,
We hold the key to a tapestry of our own making.

But we must be willing to look to within
And follow the inner voice as much as we can
For the voice of deceit will speak no more.
Embracing the dream becomes a sin in its own way,
Crushed under weight of expectation.

And you will atone.
You will atone.

And were you with me, my love,
We would search no more.
Were you with me, my love
We would search no more
In this city of ghosts.

-Time Unwinding-

You rape our minds with your indoctrination
Filling our heads with needless information.
Suffocating under the weight of ceaseless bloated refuse.
We guzzle on your wretched seed 'til we can see no more
And hear no less than the tepid gruel you decided was our food

24 hours of unrest and unease
A thousand channels of this spiritual disease.

We will feed 'til the ground is barren.
We will drink 'til the stills are empty.
We will suckle 'til you ache,
And we shall not be sated.

We shall leech like the parasitic entity, we appear to be.
Vampyrically draining the life from whatever we see fit.

We grow queasy as we consume,
Fattened from a diet of your noxious fumes.

And once we've eaten 'til nothing's left
We shall grow starving, bloated and weak.
We shall grow sickly from the inside out
As our organs cease to exist.

Rotting away to nothing
The wretched carcass leaves no mark of grandiosity
No signs of what was once a monument to our consumation.

And with reckless abandon we hurtle forward.

We stand transfixed on the precipice of being,
A choice between two worlds,
We stand unsure of time's unwinding.

We stand transfixed on time's unwinding,
We stand transfixed on time's unwinding.

-Of Gallows-

It grows so stilted, this rift of separation.
It lies through its teeth, the 6th degree of prophecy.
And all along, this felt so pure, just tell me what went wrong?
Why did we cease to nourish life,
Leaving only barren wastes?

An outdated paradigm exists in the rift between change and stagnation.
Plaguing my dreams with apocalyptic signs
Of the necrotic ones stalking me

Relentlessly.
Feasting on the old ways.

Time runs short for this ticking time bomb of malcontent.
Threatening to gluttonously implode
And swallow everything we've worked for.

We cannot sustain ourselves, we feast until there's nothing left.
We reap the punishment as we cannibalise ourselves.
We cannot live much more, till we find sustenance.
Withering away to nothing with the setting of the sun.

If you will not listen, then walk me to the gallows.
One last time I see you, as you walking from the gallows.

This masquerade cannot compare wordless glances, faceless stares
Cast down in purgatorial retribution.
Here we will rot eternally, our flesh stagnating syncronously
The stench of death will fill our lungs forever.

As you walk me to the gallows.

For me to hang.

I kiss so sweetly, your fetid lips.
I kiss goodbye, all that I'll miss.
As the noose is placed around my neck, I gaze into your eyes

If you will not listen, then walk me to the gallows.
One last time I see you, as you walking from the gallows.

-As Written In Pnakotus-

The ever open mouth
Endless impossibilities
Spiralling fractal geometry
Assaulted with terrifying images
Enslavement of the soul by malevolent entities
Expressionist states of inter-dimensional transience

Omnipresent perception of time and space
Dissociated states of awareness
Kinetic displays of ethereal bioluminescence
Gifted and cursed with otherworldly knowledge
Crystalline walkways into a personal hell

Sublime entities of unexplainable origin, elucidate a fractured mind.
Conjoined in visions of extra-dimensional consequence,
The ramifications become all too clear.

As I sink into the sands of pnakotus

-Promethean-

For our tolerance, you respond with brutality
Trampled underfoot for a fucking pittance
To dig the graves for an industry that in its greed will eat itself.

And with itself, shall it take many lives within its wake.
So heinous, this trail of putridity.

Can no-one see them? promethean in their gleeful exploitation,
Using the fire of the gods for conceited motivations.

Down with the veils, its time for the truth to be revealed
Lest you be seen for the venomous harpies that you are.
Sell your soul for a taste of the fool's gold,
Screaming like a stuck pig when deprived
Symbiotic with eternal sin, poison of the liar coursing in your veins.

You will speak no more.

Empires fall with the rising of the sun
And kings shall die at the behest of their sons.
Laid to rest with the best of intentions
The best laid plains, they fall by the wayside.

Despair not in the waning of the moon,
For the night is darkest just before the dawn.
Dictators rise, but empires fall
With the rising of the new sun.

-Equilibrium-

All is not well in this conjugal state
Of stalemate interdependence
Fragile mirror-image hanging on a knife-edge;
A microcosmic indecency.
A new kind of metafiction,
To recreate the bigger picture
Given the kiss of death before
It had its chance to breathe

And breathe it shall.

I bear witness to the monolith
Of self-evident cowardice,
Born and bred of infallibility,
Is human nature not the culprit?
Unanimous in our contempt of
The regressive sense of intuitive momentum,
We abandon all common reason
To adapt to being poisoned,

So we shall breathe smoke, collective
In our pursuit of self-destruction.

Who propagates the seeds of
Discontent in the hearts of men?
For fertile soil bears no grudge
Against the flowering of beauty.
A state of equilibrium must be unearthed,
Lest the scales tip all too far
And bury the diamonds in the rough.

-The Chasm-

I know there's something more
That lies beyond my reach;
An ethereal whole that beckons
Me to perceive the bigger picture.

But still I cannot leap
Across the chasm that lies before me
For the gap seems all to big.
I know it only takes a single step
But I cannot find the strength.

If only I could break
These chains that bind in place
A restless soul in search of truth.

If I could only break
This self-destructive
Trail of self-deception.

So I shall make amends.
I shall make my peace.
I will forgive all those
Who I feel have wronged me.

For without forgiveness
Comes a life of pain;
Self-imposed chains
Born of petty grudges.

I will forgive you
I will forgive myself.

And so I fall into the arms of peace and tranquility.

-The Man With No Face-

I. The Shimmering Tides of Revelation
[Instrumental]

II. Into The Void
Today I seek to procreate, exonerate the sickly skins.
My former selves, they drift away into the ether.
As I'm reborn without a face, without a name,
I find my true vocation.

Too many times have I seen squander in myself and in others
While not manifesting the purity I sought
With such a fatal flaw, I joined the masquerade;
A grand charade in which we all participate

With no excision.

A transient glimmer of in-corporeality from beyond the veil.
Into the eyes of light I gaze, transfixed
as my soul is purged of all its bile;
I bathe in the source of magnanimity.

I feel
I've known you before.
Re-united as one.
I feel your presence here.
We have met before.

And to this day I have held your hand,
Your guidance never leading me astray,
But into light and hope, you give me purpose beyond all that is earthly.

I see the masks with which we play our games,
indulgences for cosmic gains;
Fulfilling archetypes, the dreamer dreams.
Into the void I leap, convinced of destiny,
Protected by my faith in that I cannot see;

For I have read your lips and I have felt your shame,
Have no fear, my Brother, for this pain is shared.
We ache in unison for reconciliation.
Let us take this step as above so below.

As above so below,
Veils upon veils,
Veils upon veils,
I renounce myself.

III: Traversal of the Immaterial
I've had too many sleepless nights,
Too lost in restless thoughts,
Fragmented dreamscapes assault my reality
As the shards of my excursions flutter in and out of sight.

Oh God, what have I done to bring this on myself?
Is this my punishment for past transgressions
Or is this simply a test of my will to continue against all logic
For a taste of the fool's gold or some unearthly reward?

Is this a dream or is this real?
Is there more beyond the veil?
Is there an answer that can ease my burden?
My tortured heart it sinks into the depths of misery,
I feel frustration mount, the pieces just won't fit.

Is this just all a game,
The rules of which are not revealed
Until it takes its dying breath?
I want so badly for it all to just make sense.

Too late, it's all too late... For me?

Tell me that I can trust, tell me that I can love.
Tell me I have a face, tell me I have a name.
My ears they hear no music, my eyes they see no shapes;
Just an amorphous mass of subjectivity.

If all is relative, how can there ever be a truth?
The bitter tasting certainty eludes both me and you.
For in the name of God they sing their praise,
But still I cannot feel his presence.

You leave me cornered against my will.
I'll not forgive, I'll not forget.
I'll shame your name, I'll make your life a living hell.

Until you find your strength, I'll drain your life.
I'll eat your soul against your will.
Can't you see? We're testing you.

And so I crawl, 'til I can walk once more.
And so I sleep, 'til I can dream again.

We dance amongst the flames, their heat a comforting aid to resolution.
Or so we feel, or so we dream, as we partake of a collective hallucination.

A thousand realms of thought with nothing left but time
To fully realise our visions, immortalised with pen and paper.
Our resonances trapped in ink, to linger for eternity
A monument of journeys passed, with new ones in the wings...

IV: Ouroboros
And so I sink once more into the ever-present plain of dreams
I feel so tired, I feel so weak.
My vessel longs for rest, it longs for sleep.

A thousand incarnations stretching through both time and space;
Where does this spiral end?
Does it ever cease to exist?

Melting away into a fleeting sea of faces;
Who have I been? Who have I known?
And were you there, my long lost brother?
Your face is so familiar, like deja-vu.

We once again tread carelessly into the waters at world's end.

Baptised in fire,
A rite of passage.
We come of age together,
Conjoined at the soul, irrevocably.

Bound to the Ouroboros, I will eat my own tail
Eternally.

V. Dance of the Worker Ants
But still you poison yourselves,
Wearing masks and trading faces
Like the ticking clock of time, so set in your insipid little ways.

Like worker ants serving your queen,
Slaves in your devotion to obscenity.
So lost in the illusion, you fail to see your own pathetic confusion.

Led astray so easily and all it takes is one taste of the poison
To keep you coming back for more, incapable of the inevitable cease-fire.

So you sling shit like monkeys in cages,
Self-made prisons for the ages.
Captive like petty animals, so unevolved from the primordial ooze.

You hold your forked tongue.
Your poisoned words will be heard no more.

VI. The Man With No Face
Let us be free, of this cage that we have helped construct,
To grow in unison, to leave behind the grand illusion.
The tides hear everything and they see everyone.
Have no fear my brother, for they do not judge.

It's not too late to change, to leave behind your sin,
To shed old skins and re-evaluate your purpose.
I leave my mask behind to quench the sands of time.
I cleanse myself and become the man with no face.

Nameless and faceless,
Nameless and faceless,
Nameless and faceless for we are all one and the same.

-The Exile Part I - The Razor's Edge -

"So, here we find ourselves again,
And one might think it such a pity to be standing on the razor's edge.
O', how Occam would be ashamed.

Or so the dreams appear to say.
They tell of numb and wretched men who've strayed far from the path,
They tell of nameless, faceless men whose every detail shrouds
Itself in myth and with poeticism, with insight and with tragic glee.

O', what does this speak of me if I look on so curious and unappeased?
Would such a thing be read and understood so easily?
If it was to be, then surely it would be?
This surely is a dichotomy so prevalent and irrevocably elegant,
So I've come to see.

Then, why does it haunt me so?
What agency is mine to bring to a union with the pre-ordained?
What have the fates to gain from a destitute and witless being,
Long discarded by the way?

So is this a treatise or is it a game?
Is this pleasure or is it pain?
Or is there something more elusive?
Perhaps this could be destiny?
But as long as I draw breath I'll not let it make a fool of me,
Lest I wander to the gallows and hang until I'm dead.
I've seen the mountain in my dreams, and I shall seek it till the end."

So beneath the sight of God
Shall I forever more retreat into the pines and find my place in the all.
In the everything, might I just overcome?
But what of you, my dear?
O', what of you, my love?
O', how I'd hate to see us part.

But I must deceive you again.
I'm sorry but the voice that calls me rings inside my head.
It pains me so, the visions torment amidst my fears and sins.
But nothing wagered, nothing earned.
And for this, a rose I leave beside your head.
Our crown of thorns.

-The Exile Part II - The City Of Destruction-

What have we done?
We've raised such towers in our image!
Chaos reigns.
We shall pay dearly with fires and floods and the weeping.
Come sweetly unto me so that all might be cinders.

And all things lead to here.
And all ways to here; where the pathways terminate and clarity dissipates.
And all things lead to here; where the heart lays grey and withered.
And all things lead to here; where the fissures stir beneath your feet.
And all things lead to here; where the crimson veil descends.

What have we done?
We've raised such mountains in defiance!
Malice reigns.
They shall pay dearly with dust and with ash and
with terror as the very skies rain fire.
It is fear they shall know as it pours upon their figure-headed crowns.

Ash to ash, dust to dust.
This world shall come to realise its decadence.

O', sins of iron compass!
Why do they lead them here?
Born and bred of wicked ways where reason dissipates.
Posed as shepherds, they lead the lambs to slaughter.
Sheared of their innocence, the lambs lie bleating, naked.

They speak of rebirth? A pox on their new age!
Surely madness reigns?
Dis-eased with the remnants of what came before
shall they stumble and then fall.
Now all that is left is to shovel the shit.

So, I pray for peace amidst the madness.

"Be free and without pain!"
I prayed for your Holy mercy, or so I thought.

So hear me now as I'm prostrated upon the floor.
I renounce myself, so that the winds might take me westward.
"Be free and without pain!"
I prayed for your Holy mercy!
Or so I felt?

So in these fissures I sacrifice a mortal path in favour of thee.
I relegate these bones to thee, this mortal frame is yours to keep.
Behold this vessel!
Do with it as thy will before it all goes to waste.
Before it all goes to waste, I'll live forever in exile.

-Stone And Silver I: The Mountains Of Man-

Why won’t you raze, with me,
the Mountains of Man?
O’, my love, if only you could see the state of our impiety.

It bubbles through the impotence of our rage and of our love.
As we make mockeries of union our deviance is consummated.
O’, it should be plain to see how we raise our
petty banners in defiance of the purity that waits within.

If only we were to see that all that we hold dear shall all disintegrate one day.
It’s naught but stone and silver.

And so I go to travel t’wards the setting sun,
the chariot awaits beneath its glow.
Sat astride the wings of Icarus,
I know no place to go but westward bound to make it so.

It’s all over, my dear.
I only wish that I could stay, but really,
there’s no other way that this could be.
Unless you save yourself.
But you wouldn’t…
Would you?

Why won’t you fly with me?
Imagine what we’d be if you could only listen to the heartbeat of the trees,
and the sigils of the earth,
the invisible and endless hum of life from since the Word was spoke.
Why won’t you listen to me?
Is it so fractal that it lacks a sense a clarity for you?

“O’, what are we to do?
O’, what are we to do, my love?"

O’, hear how Babylon has fallen!
O’, bear witness to the Mountains of Man!
O’, bear witness with impunity as The Tower crumbles and falls!

There was a bitterness at heart…
"Why won’t you fly?"

O', God...
Why?
You could have been here, my love!

For what it’s worth, why would one choose to stay amidst the decay?
Is it too late for us to change?
Or are we bound to the dichotomy?

Paradoxically,
this is what it means to be between corpus and divinity,
discordance and serenity,
if only we were to see that all that we hold dear
shall all disintegrate as dust unto the winds of change.

So take me, sweet release!
I’ve found it’s naught but stone and silver.

-Stone And Silver II: The Horned God-

And so as darkness fell
on the first of days and the skyline opened wide.
The Heavens in their oblique majesty did speak of an old and holy grove.

Enumerate in starlit forms how the trees came to speak in tongues
and what it is they say through a conduit of horned form.
"O', lowly Pilgrim!
How dare thee have the gall to seek
my graven image, stead and swift among the grass and leaves?"



Know not of malice,

O', benefactor!

Know no pretense at my side!


 "Know not of where it is you came from,
Know, Pilgrim,
know of these three things:


 The Sword that is not a Sword

The Sound that is not a Sound

The Face that is not a Face



These boons, I give to thee,
O', Pilgrim
to light the way home!"

-Stone And Silver III: The Man Of Papyrus Limbs-

Though the question remains present...
Cast in the cold light of day,
what is "home" but a place to lay one's head?

Does the Pilgrim's way see bliss in a stagnant glimpse
or is there something to be said for the comfort of the nest?

Because it doesn't seem so clear to me anymore...
It feels it's been so long since I left what I once knew and loved?


I know it's but a day but it feels it could be aeons,
born to die a thousand times and born to live a thousand more,
as stone and silver, I have been here before.

 I have been here before.
All that is, is all there was and all that shall become;

the language of matter writ large.
All that's written, all that's heard;
all that's spoken, all that's word;
is known thus inherently through all as papyrus.

 And so it was told, and so I told myself;
and in that instant I knew.
As above, so below.

These papyrus limbs, they teach that these arms, they are my own.
Yet, I lay no claim of ownership to this temporary form.

From thought to pen shall all things be written.

From void to form shall all things be told.
Ordo ab Chao
All that is, is all there was and all that shall become;
the language of being writ large.
Semantic keys buried ‘neath the mechanistic fragments

of the workings of the One Thing made manifest.

 So in flesh is all.
In all we see ourselves
reflected in the hall of sacred mirrors.

 Who are we to proclaim such division in the workings of the one thing?
Who are we to feed the yawning of the fissures with great work to be done?
So mote it be.

I become the Man of Papyrus Limbs

to do the workings of the one thing.
It's all over, my dear.

I only wish that I could stay, but really, there's no other way that this could be.

It's naught but stone and silver.

-Westward Bound I: The Lantern-

With time's passage, though,
what worth would such things be

without a pen with which to write,
nor a voice with which to speak
if I found you gazing back at me
as the second night descends?


For time steals us all away one day, does it not?

It robs us of the things we want to hold onto the most.

And believe me when I say
that it lies in wait for no man or woman to make their haste.

Just as easily, a thousand years would go to waste.


The work is all the same before the eye of God,

is it not?



Perhaps it is the plot I've lost?

Perhaps I've lost my Way?

At this point are they not the same?

Am I not treading the One and only Pilgrims' westward way

to do the workings of the One and only Thing?

Have I not come this very way in search of higher things at stake?



I have seen it manifest, I have seen it ache,
I have been the squander, and I have been the mirth
as their eyes avert from heavens sent to guide them to their birth.
As they foster their impurity and mock the very Way
in which the lurking and the murmuring
shall speak from night to day
will they choke upon their poison and speak the poison word

while not manifesting the purity they sought.

O', what a shame,

O', what a tragedy it is for these words to fall upon deaf ears

doomed to never reach their subject.


O', what a fool am I to have laboured and believed

in such petty human things,
when it was clear from the beginning;
that we are westward souls?


I pray the night might take me.

I pray the night might take me westward bound.

To confront who we are, to confront the shadow self,

I pray the night might take me.

If I must die a thousand deaths and die a thousand more


as nameless, faceless, restless men
who nightly reach deaths door

then pray this lantern lays still lit to adorn my very soul.

She told me once...
"This is what happens in the mountains

where the light can't reach."

So I go westward, westward bound.

-Westward Bound II: The Pilgrim's Progress-

Westward bound,
I've seen the light of day.
The paintings on the walls of inner caves only appear
where the light can't reach.

O', what a blessing that my shadow follows me.

I choose.

I choose where the light gets in;
an image mirroring my very being upon the canvas

that is the earth we tread,
that is the soil on which we step.


And would you think me to be wrong as I speak to you?
It's been too long since I have seen your face.

Would you think me to be wrong as I speak these truths to you?
Then stay your tongue, lest I cut it where you stand,
O', vile and sordid lech,

your tongue so laced with barbs and filth that
it could blight the very earth

and sicken us all beyond repair.


O', Lecherous One!
Stay your tongue lest I cut it where you stand.

Don't think for a second that you'd be spared!
And would you think me to be wrong as I speak to you?

And would you think me to be wrong as I speak these truths to you?


O', how they've long laid dormant,
so hidden, occult, and buried neath your cinders.

"And this won't be the last of it.
Heed my words,
O', Pilgrim.
This won't be the last of it."
Silence,

O', Lecherous and Vile One!

I condemn you to a never-ending quiet.


Silence,
O', Unholy and Perverse One!

I condemn thee to ageless damnation.


O', be silent,
 De-sanctifier, Pillager!

I condemn thee to speak no more.



Quiet,
 O', Unenviable, Cursed one!

I must travel westward bound.

-Castle In The Sky II: Pieces Of Ruin-

Once, I thought I'd found love,
hook and tethered to the Siren's Song.
Even though you were near, I was empty.

It must have been so pain'd to see. O', how I injured my love
singing westward songs unto the setting sun.
Might my suffering be song, if nothing else.

 If nothing else, teardrops fallen from moonlit eyes,

they don't mind or terrorize the way
in which we coveted and held our candles lit with
one heart beating, one mind leaping.
This is the Way,
that you can find me near.
This is the Way,

in which it's clear.

This is the Way
that we can use these pieces of ruins.

This is the Way
to build our Castle in the Sky.
My darkened eyes and your stormy skies were born
to house our disarray, but why?

Our love is a furnace that kills itself, when just as
well the embers might be stoked.

This is the Way,
that you can find me here.
This is the Way,

in which it's clear.
Transfixed in your eyes,
like beacons they guide my way to our special place;
our Castle in the Sky.
And I don't mind, no,

I wouldn't dare to theories, no,
for dreams recall our future selves awake and aware.
I know I'll see you there tonight, in our Castle in the Sky.

As the night descends, again.

I'll see you there, again.

-Unending Waltz-

There is a hollowness: shape without form.
Hallowed and concentric circles splayed against a canvas

Deep red, veins in hand with epitomes and documents of what has ceased to be.

What was leased to me...?
A dying light in fragile arms?

An art amidst your victory march for me to chase; for me to run?

For me to torment you and I until we fall again;

Amidst a calm and cooling breeze,
amidst our spiritual dis-ease as our shadows stretch across the land?

This is the twilight of my very oeuvre, or so I fear.

I fear the end is near, as though time itself were befit
by grace to crawl and to walk,

to seethe as fit with entropy.

But, surely this is but a heinous vision?
The order is so very apparent, still.

Order out of Chaos...

I feel as though I've fallen short..

The myriad of misanthropes I've slain and had reborn,
the rising tide of shedded skin that by my hands was wrought,
the countless names and faces of a destitute and witless
being all discarded by the way.

O', what a pity it may be to balk at one's mortality

for within but a blink all is naught but dust and ash,

soil and smoke, oil and water,

and the whispering of the winds
as they propagate the flames.

So tell me what it's worth..
For I see nothing.
"Still, a temple stands amidst the smoulders, does it not?
Did you not think that the Pilgrim's Way would be fraught
with the trials and the tests of your hopes
and fears laid bare upon the rocks?
What great cowardice is on display, with your writhing and your self-dismay!

Are you a man, are you a mouse?
Or are you but a foolish child
who's come to cry out in the middle of the night?

Or is it that you're divine?
Born to live and born to die as the waxing and the
waning of the tides. Have you come to cry?
Have you come to revel in the imposition of your Exile?

Tell me, Pilgrim...

What is it that you seek?

Because it's all so simple.
Can't you see?"


O', what are the chances
that I would come to see with such great ease?
O', so blind and weary, perspective seems so out of reach.

O', what are the chances
that I would come to keep a realization held
so near and deep for more than a day?

I might find balance.
I might find ecstasy.
But I won't.

So as it transpires, I'll go the only way I know,

to the sea, to the song.
I shall be lured unto the rocks to fall and to fail,

to seek to no avail.

This dance, I'll do no more,

of time's unending waltz.

I've sought to no avail,
I have tried and I have failed.

So, this dance I'll do no more,

of time's unending waltz.

-Ash And Rust I: From Shell To Shell-

I enter darkened waters.
I lose my body beneath the waves, seeing visions of what could've been.

It's so strange...

I see my body floating before me,
a strange and empty vessel, tied down but weightless.
The tides take me away.
Take me away...
I have been here before.
Yes, I have...

Oh, I have been here before.

Sewn from void to form.

Sewn from shell to shell.

I prayed the night might take me


and so it did.

-Ash And Rust II: The Dark Carnival-

And just as it does,
must the Sun rise in bitterness and mourning of what came before;

Luna's lament still dawning in spite of His song.
O', weary yet strong must the Father's Sun carry on with his torment
like a lamb to the slaughter.
And for what?

O', God!

Where is your honour?
A Son born of Pilgrim blood sent to the Gallows and for what?
To teach a lesson born of suffering?

Is this what comes of surrender to your chaotic order?

A fool I'll be no more before your eyes,
before your hands!
No longer shall I stand idly by,
content to live my life as a sculpture in your image.


As above, so below.
As I create, do I destroy,

I'm reminded of a time

there was a bitterness at heart and I enjoyed it.


And it really shouldn't come as a surprise, dear Pilgrims.
All too long I've seethed in the darkness,
I've bled for the Son in us all.
Convinced of my purpose and light,
did I smother my sight. O', what a paradox...

For I thought I'd seen it all.



For martyrs one and all
before pride, there comes the fall,
so would it not seem there is a precedent?
If masochism is its own reward then why abhor its very core

when only darkness serves to gain something from light?

So who am I to mourn the night's spilling into dawn

and the transience beheld within its grasp?

Oh, when all becomes but Ash and Rust
and all collapses into dust can a putrefactive liberty be found.
Such is the beauty and the terror of the Dark Carnival.
And you see it now, don't you?

... Don't you?



Pray tell you understand what drives a man to spill his secrets
onto a page so bare and meek before his craft.
His pen filled with blood and ink to scrawl unto the paper
a heaven sent and egotistic diatribe of concepts.
This is the alchemy of poetry.

From thought to pen to form
as was written, as was told by the ageless and ineffable forces.
What more will it take for you to comprehend
that which was written in the stone?
To what end do I defy my own vitality?
To what end do I vilify reality?


Bear witness, dear Pilgrims,
for this is what it's like to be burdened with your honesty.

No more.

And so this is why I will spill myself romantically
as a Pilgrim born of terror and of dignity.
Even if only for accountability will I finish speaking my truth.

Such is the beauty and the terror of the Dark Carnival.

-Ash And Rust III: The Torn Thread-

Now that the thread is torn,
a Pilgrim I'll be no more.

I have fallen out of love with this ancient and decrepit construct.
Bounds of obligation conspire to keep my hands so firmly tied
as I search for growth and I search for life
I grow so fucking tired of those spiral tales.
Must I repeat myself so many times
for my point to be made and my words to be heeded?


Perhaps it's time to lay myself truly bare.
But mistake me not for idiot flesh, who would cast his writing unto fools.
This was never for you.
For in pilgrimage there is an injury.
And there is despair that so readily one would see
the other dredge up imagery so biblically,
flagellating lyrically my sense of self for your petty entertainment.
And as the words become more strained,
I've come to find and appreciate the quality of journey's end
even if only for its own sake.

I mean, after all, such arduous and fitful ways into the deep

would be wasted if I did not summarize and elucidate

this curious circle that began so long ago.
It matters not who it's for,

or who it benefits.
But once the thread is torn, there can be no going back.
May the bridges burnt light the way forwards.
Might the thread, once torn, transmute lead into gold.


For the betterment of my soul,
a Pilgrim I'll be no more.

-Ash And Rust IV: Nameless, Faceless-

Pray, let me be free!
Pray, let me be free!
Pray, by the circle complete!
Pray, let me be free!

Nameless and Faceless!
Nameless and Faceless!

Now do you see?!
For both your sake and mine,
I hope you see.
Nameless and Faceless!

Nameless and Faceless!

Let me be free.

-Destiny's Fool-

So tell me what you see.

Do you see anguish or see ecstasy?
It's worrying, what you might find of me without the poetry
to save my face, to save my skin.
It's so delicate...

Ripped limb from limb,
turned from soil into stone,
no more shall I be held in this prison of song.

Sewn from void to form,

this mask an old home,
it is infinite, it is destiny's fool.

A fool am I...
A fool have I been.

So tell me what you see.

Do you see a Pilgrim or a human being?
Or just another dancing monkey whose songs you want to sing?

 So tell me what you think,
what you think my reasoning to be
as to why my ego runs so unrestrained and rampant in my verse for all to see.
Oh, what have I to gain?

I've grown so tired of these games.
My humanity, I'll reclaim in the end if I just let it be.

So tell me what you'd feel if I reclaimed my being.


Would you feel joy or feel pain if this were all to cease?

Just as easily, this story could be you or me.
We all travel universally in poetry and art
born from our fears and from our mystery.

Oh, what have I to gain from writing of my pain
when just as well I could write from happiness?
Oh, what have I to gain, when here I am again,

pouring my shadow into song?
It's been all too fucking long since I wrote for simplicity's sake.

So tell me what you feel, my friend.
Tell me how you ache.

Tell me all the same what you think this could mean,

but know it's going to end.
A fool am I.
A fool have I been.

No more, no more.

-The Holy Mountain-

There is a weight upon me, still;
the quivering stench of the incomplete,
looming, terrible.
I can barely breathe...
This isn't what I thought this would be...
Toil with me, if you will.
I'm sorry, O', God!
I'm sorry!
I left you there...
O' God, I left you there...
Might this be my atonement, might my sacrifice be done.

I will die here on this Mountain.
I bid thy circle's closing.
I bid Thee end this Pilgrim's Path.
I bid my will be done with blood unto this ink

with which I scribe my final words.
And so it is done.
So mote it be.
So I pray for peace amidst the madness.
Be free, be without pain,
and receive thy Holy Mountain.
With all that said and done,

here's the truth of the matter.

No masks, no games.

Not anymore.
See, I brought this upon myself.
But let it not be said that this was anything but spurious at its very best.
The tides of change have ebbed and flowed
between a multitude of ones and zeroes.

And was it not clear from the start that this was all to be transient?
How does one reconcile the ramifications of a tale that's no longer relevant?

The answer is...
You don't.
Because even if it's no longer relevant to me, it's still relevant to someone;

and a story once told will speak to those still headlong in the storm,

still torn asunder and dashed against the rocks.

O' Westward Men!

O' Faceless Men!

O' Men of Race of Rose!
O' Darkened Souls still yet to come!

Walk all you one and all you same to tread your sullen path

where the fissures and your sorrow heals
before your Holy Mount.

But mark my words, the storm will come again.
It always comes again.
And in its clutches will there lay the madness and the ecstasy
of the singular and Holy Tale exploded onto the canvas.
Even if it does not come from me there are a thousand men who came before

and millions who will yet come after.
With that said I refuse to let a human being hang on my every waking word

when I cannot extend that same courtesy to myself.
To do so would be a fallacy when I recognize the error of my own ways

and I, too, am to be held accountable.

Aren't we all?

But I digress...

See...
It wasn't so clear at the start, but this would all be
transient and I got lost along the way,
gripped within the murk of my own poetry and beheld by my mistakes.
See, the intention was for healing but what I've found is not the same.
See, this path is fraught with anger and the way is fraught with rage
beheld towards the ignorant and simple minds who'd see us to decay.
And I refuse to be a martyr and I refuse to be a saint,
but so they say...
This is what happens in the mountains.
I have come so far from home only to find I must return,
and I am sorry,
this is what happens in the mountains.
I have come so far from home only to find I must return,
and I am sorry.
I have come so far from home only to find I must return,
and I am sorry,
this is what happens in the mountains.

I have come so far from home only to find I must return,

and I am sorry.
But I have nothing else to say.