-React / Regret-

Poison are the thoughts within me
Kerosene is the blood that I bleed
Liar is the voice that blinds me
My call to faith is a contagion of hypocrisy

Let me out
I plead insanity
I tied my freedom to a black hole within me

Poison are the thoughts within me
Kerosene is the blood that I bleed
Liar is the voice that blinds me
My call to faith is a contagion of hypocrisy

I've been a filthy man my whole life
Slave to the weakness in my mind
Consumed by the ways of this world
My fear has paralyzed me
To the point of resisting
Every good thing in me

Every click regret and pedal pressed
To the backboard of my future

She caught me off guard
Life sold short with the truth of
No sun rising
Now it's all gone
The consequences seem
Never-ending

(Rescue me)
So rescue me

Save me
I'm not the man I portray to be
I'm unwinding
And sick of being a fake
This addiction has scarred
My witness
Without you my flesh
Will always drown the good in me

Poison are the thoughts within me
Kerosene is the blood that I bleed
Liar is the voice that blinds me
My call to faith is a contagion of hypocrisy

She says take my hand
And follow me upstairs
Let me ease your mind
It's you and me tonight

The temptress is calling out for me
I will not be a victim of deceit
I've heard her voice before
And I refuse to let her scar my faith

-Idée Fixe-

Splintering into the very fibers
Of who I once was
I'm disappearing like a fog
It isn't easy to recognize me
I was born from the dirt
To dirt is where I will return
This is self medicated therapy
This is who I never wanted to be Smoked out by the thief in me

I stole my own, own future I
I stole my own path to survival I
I stole my own, own future I
I sold every part of me
To something empty

Let me take a hit for the last time
There's something 'bout it
I can't deny
I get that feeling in my bones
It's just too hard to let go
Let me take a sip for the last time
There's something 'bout it
I can't deny
Withdrawals are creeping and
I guess this means I lose again

Countless times of hanging
My head in shame
I'm torn up by the lie
'Lets live it up'
I've got nothing, got nothing
To move on when the sun comes up
Countless times of tying
The noose again
I'm torn up by the lie
'Lets live it up'
I breathe nothing, mean nothing
To anyone but I just can't stop

I give up

Break me
A hundred times and
A hundred more
I want this but I need you more
Hear me
I may speak with
A weak voice
But your power shines through
My weakness

This is my final cry for help
God guide me through
This salted path
You're the only who hasn't left
You're the only one that I have left
Please hear me

Let me take a hit for the last time
There's something 'bout it
I can't deny
I get that feeling in my bones
It's just too hard to let go
Let me take a sip for the last time
There's something 'bout it
I can't deny
Withdrawals are creeping and
I guess this means I lose again

Don't take that hit when you
Said you've quit
Don't take that, don't take that

-Separation-

This house is broken
And it's all because of you
So take the blame and just leave
Like you always do
I'll be the man who stays
To clean up every mess you make
I'll bury every single memory
You tried to break

So walk away
I've wasted way too many nights
Just the mind of an eight year old
Wishing you would just be
More of a man
The father I wish I had
It's something that will
Never escape me

Look me in the eyes
Tell me the truth
It's not you that inspires me
Never left a smile on my face
Don't try and prove
That you're anything

Nothing will be left on your grave
It's not you that inspires me
Never left a smile on my face
Don't try and prove
That you're anything
Nothing will be left on your grave

The fighting, the lying
The beating, the crying
Oh you were
A thief to our prosperity
There is no denyingv The drinking, the spending
The cheating, the cringing
Oh you were
A wolf in wolfs clothing

Look me in the eyes
Tell me the truth
It's not you

This house is broken
And it's all because of you
So take the blame and just leave
Like you always do
I'll be the man who stays
To clean up every mess you make
I'll bury every single memory
You tried to break

-Brittle Spirit-

Let me down
An ending that I'm used to
You think that you can relate
But I can see it now
You don't know the things
That I have been through
The stories always the same
And I never change

Words are so meaningless
I feel myself exhale them
Nobody ever listens
So tie me to this nothingness
I feel my thoughts imploding
All that is golden rusting away
Inside of me
A brittle breaking spirit

I envy what you've done
To mask the pain you run from
How quickly you recover
I could never hide these scars
I suffer from

I feel so alone, so forgotten
Running myself sick
With all these questions
I can't seem to ask for help
When everybody thinks I'm
Crazy cause I can't help myself

Look at me
Who am I?
Show me once a face of love
Meaningless
empty threats
Telling me the truth's a lie

Pick my feet up
I know I said I'd never make it
But I don't wanna be stuck
Inside this world
I hate it
Pick my feet up
I know I said I'd never make it

Let me down
An ending that I'm used to
You think that you can relate
But I can see it now
You don't know the things
That I have been through
The stories always the same
And I never change

Words are so meaningless

Truth, is the Son of God
Came to bear the weight your feeling
You are not alone
You are not alone
Truth, is the chance to know
Every breath is filled with meaning
You are not alone
You are not alone

-Consequence-

I can't stomach the thought
It's sickening
I burned the bridges
That you made for me
So why would you put up with me
I've broken every form of trust
That you could build
With a boy who's fatherless

Anyone else would
watch from a distance
As I drown myself in selfishness
But no, not you not you
Though I wish you would

Branded like I'm someone
Else's property
I feel like such a waste of life
When you'd say to me
"It's OK son, I'll always love you"
But mother I'm so afraid
I won't stop hurting you

My mind can't handle
Your normality
I get so lost in thoughts
That no one else would ever dream
Step off, come back
No just abandon me
I'd rather you be free

I need something more them help
Before I end up
In hell itself
It would seem there's only
Demons in me

I can't stomach the thought
It's sickening
I'm tired of losing this
Battle inside me
I think it's time to give
This fantasy
To think that I could unwreck
My history

Take all that I am
Be alive in me
Here me now
I am your child
Broken on my knees
Please God be the freedom in me

-Living Deceased-

I can't believe I let you in
I let you win for so long
You had a hold so tight on me
I could hardly breathe

I was afraid that with
Every step I'd take
A sleeping giant I'd awake

Just keep on running your mouth
It doesn't matter, it's over now

You can say anything
you want to me
But I won't let you win this time
Cause dreams are never achieved
Without making mistakes
Without making mistakes

I am not a mistake
I have been relieved from
The grip you had on me
I am no longer
Living deceased

I will be free from disease

You've always told me I'm worthless
But now He's shown me my purpose

You can say anything
you want to me
But I won't let you win this time
Cause dreams are never achieved
Without making mistakes
Without making mistakes